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Still surreal July 7, 2008

Filed under: auyongs, itsy-bitsy, latte, wistful — yulingxpress @ 5:50 pm

Mondays are usually languid for me. I grade my last class, do the light chores, run some errands, and the time is mine and all mine. Sometimes I’ll bake, sometimes I’ll read. Today, I couldn’t quite find it in me to stand for long since the leg is still hurting a little from yesterday’s fall. So I sit snug on the couch and start thinking about the baby. She’s quite a handful today, moving non-stop, and I find myself wondering many a time if I’m simply hungry or she’s just exploring.

I think about how unexpected this whole miracle is. Really, a Latte junior was in the works, not an Auyong junior. Then I think about how the huddy, despite all the apprehension at first, has grown into this amazing doting father-to-be :: he talks to the baby gently, whimsically, feels her kicks and goes, “like an alien in your tummy!”. I think about how the little one would look like. His eyes, my nose, please. I think about how lovely it is to have Latte boy and baby girl in the homeland, growing up together. I think about whether I can spare enough space in my heart to love another one the way I love my two boys.

On days like these when I feel like a whale and look like one too (today I scared myself when I looked into the mirror – flabby arms, bulging belly, bending knees – not a pretty sight), I think and I write. I tell myself it’s alright to feel befuddled. I eat a cookie. And I feel heaps better.

 

7 Responses to “Still surreal”

  1. lilsnooze Says:

    I really think u boths will take to parenthood beautifully. Having latte really prepares you both for it :)

  2. yulingxpress Says:

    thanks babe, that means a lot to us, especially when I’m not really so sure myself! Latte certainly helps, but he is such an easy one to take care of in the first place! :p

  3. maybebabe Says:

    i agree with lilsnooze. it’s not difficult to see what doting parents you both will be! besides, i think when one of you feels frustrated/tired the other one can take over pretty nicely. dont worry too much!

  4. Stephie Says:

    Hey dearie! No worries! The weight will all fall away once you breastfeed!

    So glad she’s a girl so I can shower her with the pink stuffs when she arrives, which Josh never got to wear. Hehe. Take care!!

  5. yulingxpress Says:

    maybebabe:: such kind words. :) it’s a great booster, dear!

    stephie:: i really really hope so! thanks for the reassurance!
    wow, thank you in advance! that’s very sweet of you! baby says thanks too! :)

  6. beanbean Says:

    awww, i love how the husbands too are becoming these excited father-to-bes! it’s very endearing :)

    cookies do make everything better. ice cream too.

  7. yulingxpress Says:

    beanbean:: haha, yes you would know! :) gosh, i want a nice tub of ice cream to tuck into now too!


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